Pink waves of oblivion

Let me go

Let me sink under the pink waves of oblivion

Let me escape the torment that is my life

The guilt and the pain that is the very air that I breathe

The only reason I am here

Is that I love you all too much to cause you pain

When my only wish is to go in peace

How do I cope with the knowledge that I’ve let you all down

How do I erase the memory of your faces

Etched in disapointment

How do I learn to be all that you want me to be?

It seems impossible, a frustrating dream

I hear you fighting about me

I know that I cause tension between you

Can’t you see that I’m not worth it?

That it would be easier to let me go?

I don’t expect you to hold the blade yourself

But you can let me love you less

So that I can finally leave